Decisions, Decisions, Decisions

Thursday, December 29, 2011

I've never spent so much time in prayer in my life. I've been camped out in the adoration chapel for a couple hours each night, trying to discern where my life is going after graduation and more importantly, what God's will is for me.

At this point I just want to bang my head against a wall. I have to decide TOMORROW and my heart is still torn. Last night in the chapel I had myself convinced I should take one job. Two of my friends from high school youth group got ENGAGED (yay!!!) outside of the chapel, came back in to tell me, and left. In that span of five minutes I changed my mind again, haha. Note to any potential suitors out there: proposing at the adoration chapel is highly encouraged! ;) My goal was to have a job offer before Christmas break. To be honest, I really didn't think I'd get any job offers. Well, God had other plans and right now I have three job offers dangling in front of me and they are all completely different.

Here's the rundown:

1) Finance & operations rotational job with a Fortune 500 company in Texas
2) Project management job in market research in Ohio (dream job!)
3) Catholic missionary job on university campuses with FOCUS (location TBD)

I had job #1 before Thanksgiving, so I've had a while to mull that offer over and it's pretty much out of the picture at this point. It has the largest salary, but I'd be bored to tears working in finance & ops. Despite my exciting travels around Europe, I discovered while I was there that I'm a midwest girl at heart and would rather stick close to the values and lifestyle I am accustomed to in the midwest. I interviewed for job #2 during finals week and they called early last week to offer me the job, the day before my interview for FOCUS. I was thisclose to canceling my interviews with FOCUS, but decided I might regret it if I did because I've been considering it for a year or so. FOCUS called and gave me a job offer on Christmas eve. Cue panicking and praying!

This is the hardest and most important decision I ever had to make - so stressful! If it were any other jobs it wouldn't be so difficult, but I am really passionate and interested in both marketing and working for the Church. I WANT BOTH. I can see myself being happy in either job. I spent all four years at IU working really hard in campus FOCUS would be a natural fit for me. On top of that I really desire to evangelize and share the fullness of truth and the faith with university students because I have seen for myself the darkness and sin that permeates college culture. Oh...did I mention that I would have to fundraise my entire salary if I chose FOCUS? I must be crazy to even consider giving up a nice salary and benefits to be a Catholic missionary...!

N.B. Despite my "predicament" I do realize how blessed I am to have all these job options. I'm just terrified I'll make the wrong decision. Growing up sucks. St. Joseph the worker, pray for me!

O great St. Joseph, you were completely obedient to the guidance of the Holy Spirit. Obtain for me the grace to know the state of life that God in His providence has chosen for me. Since my happiness on earth, and perhaps even my final happiness in heaven, depends on this choice, let me not be deceived in making it. Obtain for me the light to know God's Will, to carry it out faithfully, and to choose the vocation which will lead me to a happy eternity. Amen. 

Joyeux Noel!

Monday, December 26, 2011

Joy to the world - the Lord is come!! No better way to celebrate Christ's birth (and my mama's birthday!) than Midnight Mass! I hate that most people have already begun taking down their Christmas decorations, Christmas has JUST BEGUN people! Remember the carol "The 12 Days of Christmas"? That's not just a fun song - there really are twelve days of the Christmas season. The octave of Christmas lasts 8 days and ends on January 1, the Solemnity of Mary, Mother of God. We continue celebrating the Christmas season until Epiphany on January 6th. Epiphany is the manifestation of Jesus as Messiah of Israel, Son of God and Savior of the world. The great feast of Epiphany celebrates the adoration of Jesus by the wise men (magi) from the East, together with his baptism in the Jordan and the wedding feast at Cana in Galilee (CCC 528).

Side note: if you observe Advent as we wait in joyful hope for the birth of our Savior and wait to put your Christmas decorations up, you won't want to tear them down December 26th, but rather leave them up through Epiphany!

Christmas continues - be merry, be holy, REJOICE! I found this meditation for December 25th in a book in the adoration chapel in Ktown...I love it!!

"Holy Mass is a daily Christmas. The crib is the altar; the hands of our Lady, the hands of the priest. Yes, in every Mass we can say,"Puer natus est nobis," a Child is born, a little Boy is born, the Son of God and of our Lady, far more little than in the crib but still the same Christ. At the altar as in Bethlehem is sung the same Gloria in excelsis, for the Savior is born, He is there on the altar; there is but one Jesus…Christmas, Incarnation, every day." - Fr. Mateo Crawley-Boevey, SS.CC.

The following are pictures taken by a St. Patrick parishioner/fellow Italy pilgrim at Midnight Mass :) It was such a beautiful Mass; I was just bursting with joy and love. There might have also been an incense high accompanying my happiness ;)

St. Patrick Catholic Church in Ktown
Oh hey there's me and family & friends! :)
Fr. Ted blessing the nativity
Incensing the altar
Love these two holy priests and faithful friends!
"The Word was made flesh and dwelt among us!"


The Christmas Story

Friday, December 23, 2011

As told by children from New Zealand with adorably cute accents :) "They call the baby Jejus and they loved him! And he has two daddies, God and Joseph." This reminds me we must have child-like faith!



Monday, December 12, 2011

Hoosier Hysteria
Saturday night was the most memorable night of my entire college career. Why? IU BASKETBALL IS BACK (and with a vengeance!)!!!! Bloomington has been in a frenzy since Saturday night! IU played University of Kentucky, the #1 team in the nation. Both teams were undefeated prior to the game. IU was leading by up to ten points almost all of the game. However, with 5 seconds left UK was up by one point. As the clock counted down to 0, Christian Watford hit a 3-pointer and the Hoosiers won by ONE point. The atmosphere at the game was UNREAL. I was sitting in the balcony and it was literally shaking as 17,000 people went bizerk and stormed the court until it was a sea of crimson. I was screaming so much and jumping up and down that I bit my tongue and broke a nail ;) The $220 I paid for student basketball tickets this year was worth that and more.

"The Watford Curve: The point curve all IU professor are obligated to give students on final exams, due to Christian Watford's ability to hit game winning threes. Due to his God-like abilities, students have given up on studying, to repeatedly watch the replay of that shot."

Afterwards we booked it downtown where all the bars are. People were celebrating in the streets, jumping and dancing on top of cars, and nearly flipped one car over. The bar I was in was so crowded the police came in through the ceiling (for crowd control?) as students sporadically broke into the fight song or cheers of "%@#$ Kentucky" and "Hoo hoo hoo Hoosiers!!!" This town went so crazy I can't even imagine was it was like in 1987 when IU last won an NCAA championship. These videos doesn't even do the madness justice! People started camping outside of Assembly Hall on Tuesday, five days before the game, to be the first inside.

Kelvin Sampson destroyed the IU basketball program and coach Tom Crean (he's Catholic!!) has been rebuilding the program the past three years. This win is a huge deal for Hoosier fans - and the beginning of a new era of Indiana basketball!! The last time we beat a #1 ranked team was in 2002 (also the last time we made it to the NCAA finals - I still remember watching this game at my grandparent's house when I was 12!).

One of my friends saw Tom Crean at Mass Sunday morning and thanked him. Coach Crean responded, "It was fun, wasn't it?" :) Five banners on the wall, sixth banner knocking at the door!

GO HOOSIERS!!!!! We bleed cream & crimson, baby!!

Dare I...?

Friday, December 2, 2011

One of my good friends just messaged me out of the blue and asked if I would be interested in going back to Europe with her to backpack for a few weeks after we both graduate in May. This would be our last chance to live young, wild, and free (haha) before we start working in the corporate world and only get 15 days of vacation a year.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Do I dare entertain the idea of going back to Europe for a third summer in a row (after going to Ghana in March)?!?! I'm already mentally making a list of all the countries I missed last semester and dreaming of going back to Hungary and visiting some of my friends there...

"The world is a book and those who do not travel read only a page." -St. Augustine

Taken last Thanksgiving before I moved to Hungary... The world is my playground :)