Oh hello there. I've been reticent to blog about Cincinnati life since I moved here in June 2012, mainly because it's taken me this long to know what to think of it ("it" being Cincinnati and life in the fast lane) and to understand why I said yes to a job offer in Cincinnati and no to everything else. I spent the first six months hating Ohio and my job/corporate America and the next year wondering why I moved here, what could settle my restless heart (a new job? getting an MBA? busying myself in parish ministries? lots and lots of retail therapy?*), what could make me truly happy, and what could make me come fully alive.
I was asking all the wrong questions. I should have been asking: Who can settle my restless heart? Who can make me truly happy? Who can make me come more fully alive?
The answer is so simple. He was in front of me the whole time, gently calling my name and waiting for me.
My BFF, John Paul says it best:
“It is Jesus that you seek when you dream of happiness; He is waiting for you when nothing else you find satisfies you; He is the beauty to which you are so attracted; it is He who provoked you with that thirst for fullness that will not let you settle for compromise; it is He who urges you to shed the masks of a false life; it is He who reads in your heart your most genuine choices, the choices that others try to stifle.
It is Jesus who stirs in you the desire to do something great with your lives, the will to follow an ideal, the refusal to allow yourselves to be ground down by mediocrity, the courage to commit yourselves humbly and patiently to improving yourselves and society, making the world more human and more fraternal.” - Blessed John Paul II
St. Augustine says that to seek God is the greatest adventure. And so I have nowhere left to run, but straight to the Lord, embarking on my greatest adventure yet.
*none of these things alone will make you happy. Fleeting pleasure? Yes. Eternal happiness and joy? No. I tried really hard to make it work. I just ended up with a really full closet, a really busy calendar, and a really empty heart.